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My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 21] Night of Six

She remained silent… just turned away and kept on walking… she began to hum… such a soothing music… the tone was truly relaxing… I found the grater enjoyment. The song that she was humming was relatively familiar. She spoke as we got closer to the bar “I did not really think of you as the strong silent type.” “strong and silent are the worst words to describe me.”                 I opened the door for her she as she entered loud blasting music, filled my ears… at the bar I saw Char talking to Danny… and Ice was sitting off on her own… Approaching her was Jen. This… is going to be one hell of a night… Char looked at me… so Danny did as well. I walked over to the bar and the 2 of them walked over to us as we sat down. Char then spoke… “Maybe you two want the private room upstairs… we… we will join you in a few…” “I don’t think I can pay for a private room right now…” then Danny chipped in “I’ll pay for us… but I’ll have to invite Ice and Jen…” my mind was sent in to a panic and

My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 20] Blanket of Snow

“Sir are you here for… something?” “Um… I’m here to meet Niki.” “Niki… she Is still inside…” “Oh… do you know when she is done?” “thirty minutes at most. “ “I’ll wait here…” “Want some coffee? My wife always makes me far too much.” “Um… I don’t want to be a bother… I’ll be happy just to wait here “ “Fine… if you want some I’ll be over here.” As he said this he walked over to the guard house…                 I stood there looking at the stars… the moon… it all… looked so nice… it truly captured my attention… soon I found myself sitting down on the edge of the side walk… snow started to cover my shoulders and head. I heard the snow crunch under someone’s shoes… “Hey…” that soft voice the melodic intonation… just the raw sound… it was Nik, I Spun my head around and looked at her. “You really managed to keep a man waiting.” “Don’t flatter yourself ” “I think flattering yourself is  a good way to keep yourself alive.” “I like to have other ways to get my sets of thrill…”

My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 19] New blood

She walked out of the auditorium leaving me behind… then I heard the door close and the lights turn on. Then Some was laughing… As I turned to face the voice I say him… Danny. “Smooth moves my main man” “Don’t start Danny” I felt him starting to move towards me. “Come on man It’s Niki she is super popular ” “I don’t really care about popularity” “Okay let’s say that you don’t… so why say yes?” “Because I can fell something about her” “Might want to change the phrasing on that” “Fine… I feel a grater connection towards her ” “So that it’s?  a grater connection… think that changes her popularity” “I told you that I don’t really care about her popularity” “Fine… so where are you going to bring her?” “Char’s bar most likely” “don’t you think that might be a little too soon comparing from yesterday” “Yesterday was just a coincidence”                 I saw him sigh… he started to think of things… he simply turned his back on me “I’ll go tell her… maybe you should go to cl

My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 18] Date with the snow

As I looked at her I got a good sense of her character. Her short hair was a dark brown,  the right side of her hair was shaved and it was use to show a clear cross earring that was hanging on her ear.  Her eyes where the defining feature on her, one was clearly dark blue. And the other one was closer to being a green color. As I looked closer at her she spoke and my mind was snapped back in to reality. “At least you are looking at my eyes.” “beautiful to say the least. “As long as you keep your eyes up here then it’s fine.”  as she said this she took a leap off the stage. Her leather boots mad a loud landing on the floor. She took a closer step towards me. She suddenly reached out and wrapped her arms around my neck. I looked at her… “don’t you think it’s a little too early for that?” “Maybe just a little… but I like the look of you…”                 Like the look of me I look like a slob that somehow cut his hand shaving… that was far too much for me to think off. I was

My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 17] Eyes on stage

her face was clean no more blood splattered across everything. I looked at her and I could feel the weight of everything I did slowly coming down on me. She pushed me to lay down… “Sleep” she said sitting down on the bed next to me… “I… I’m sorry.” “Don’t just please rest… we can talk about this tomorrow.”  I closed my eyes let the cold take me, I could feel the dream world slowly take me… What did I dream up? I would lie if I told you that I dreamt up something good for once. Something to take my mind of off the pain, something to make me forget… but no… I woke up with no one around… sitting up all I saw. Was a letter sitting on the table… Simple latter I walked over to the table. All I could think of was her… All of these things happening again. Picked up the paper and threw it in drawer. I did not want to know… I walked back to my bag… School… All I could think of was class… seeing char and seeing everyone all over again it was too much. Took a shower and started to make my

My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 16] Drawing the line in blood

“Regret it?! Jen I can’t spend one day without thinking about what you did. She left me because of you?!” “Sander please.” I got up and stood next to the mirror.                 Hated her… I hated… something… I started to think did I hate her? Or was it me? I looked in to the mirror I did not see me anymore, what happened to the smart kid that everyone loved?, that kid that made everyone happy. I could feel my blood pumping around my body, I could feel my head get light, but my eyes were locked on the mirror, I was looking at my own eyes I could see someone that hated so much, I wanted him dead…  there was the soft ticking of the clock.  Tick… tick…. Tick. Then the mirror shattered. I hear Jen gasp then yell. “sander! What is wrong with you.” As I slammed my hand on to the table blood splattered over the table top and jen’s Jacket “Sander sit down” Jen stood up reaching out her hand. “get out…” “What?” “Get out Jen… I don’t want you here anymore” “Sander… I-“ “I SAID GET