My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 16] Drawing the line in blood

“Regret it?! Jen I can’t spend one day without thinking about what you did. She left me because of you?!”

“Sander please.” I got up and stood next to the mirror.

                Hated her… I hated… something… I started to think did I hate her? Or was it me? I looked in to the mirror I did not see me anymore, what happened to the smart kid that everyone loved?, that kid that made everyone happy. I could feel my blood pumping around my body, I could feel my head get light, but my eyes were locked on the mirror, I was looking at my own eyes I could see someone that hated so much, I wanted him dead…  there was the soft ticking of the clock.  Tick… tick…. Tick. Then the mirror shattered. I hear Jen gasp then yell.

“sander! What is wrong with you.” As I slammed my hand on to the table blood splattered over the table top and jen’s Jacket “Sander sit down” Jen stood up reaching out her hand.
“get out…”
“What?”
“Get out Jen… I don’t want you here anymore”
“Sander… I-“
“I SAID GET OUT!” I waved my had at her, The blood splattered over her chest and the walls next to my bed. And so she walked over the table picked up her jacket. I looked down… I knew she would give me a worried look, I regretted the night already.
“sander…” Her voice was hallow, no emotion behind it all.
“what Jen” I myself was tried… the blood dripping off the table on to the floor. It was a real problem. I could feel my body chilling.

                She said nothing. She looked at the shattered mirror I could see the fear in her eyes. She move to the bathroom and started to rummage through the cabinets… and so I sat down on my bed All I could hear the clock ticking and blood dripping. As I looked up I saw Jen standing next to the door and she started walking towards me.

“don’t”
“shut up sander…”
“I don’t” She covered my mouth with her hand. And as she moved her hand away I stayed silent.

                I felt her gentle warm hands cleaning my cuts. She started wiping off the blood she was silent yet I could feel her gentle caress of her hand. “Sander… you need to think more before you act” I would have spoken. If I felt it necessary.    There was the fact that I was still looking at her… I watched as her shoulders slowly lifted then she let out as soft sigh. “you need to let things be Sander… grow up… just remember what part of a world you are in remember why you are so important” I felt a soft  gauze   wrapping around my hand the only thing I could feel was the warm blood  dripping down my hand even if he was slowly being wrapped up by Jen, she looked up at me and sighed, once again… she put medical tape on the end of the gauze, to keep it in place… I felt her gently kiss my hand…” Wait here” she said as she headed towards the bathroom… I could hear the faucet turn on and the water Jen walked back out.