My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 19] New blood

She walked out of the auditorium leaving me behind… then I heard the door close and the lights turn on. Then Some was laughing… As I turned to face the voice I say him… Danny.

“Smooth moves my main man”
“Don’t start Danny” I felt him starting to move towards me.
“Come on man It’s Niki she is super popular ”
“I don’t really care about popularity”
“Okay let’s say that you don’t… so why say yes?”
“Because I can fell something about her”
“Might want to change the phrasing on that”
“Fine… I feel a grater connection towards her ”
“So that it’s?  a grater connection… think that changes her popularity”
“I told you that I don’t really care about her popularity”
“Fine… so where are you going to bring her?”
“Char’s bar most likely”
“don’t you think that might be a little too soon comparing from yesterday”
“Yesterday was just a coincidence”

                I saw him sigh… he started to think of things… he simply turned his back on me “I’ll go tell her… maybe you should go to class” he started walking away the door creaked open. As he walked out all I could think off was I was going to do… I could not really think of anything… so I wandered, and as I wondered I started heading towards my classroom, Then I opened the door… made my way to my chair. I sat down and started scribbling down anything that I could to try and pass the time… but all I could do was watch my phone’s clock… ten more hours… ten more subjects… I wanted out… I wanted to do something more than listen… then all I could think was why…  I day dreamed of Ally… I missed her… as that was happening… I felt seconds pass… but then the bell rang… I noticed all of my classmates standing up. so I picked up my bag… I rushed home… I felt the snow crush under my shoes as I ran…

                I quickly unlocked the door and as I kept on running to my night table… grabbed all the money that I had laying around.. I reached out and grabbed my jacket as I looked back in the mirror. All I saw  was the shattered glass my silent image looked back at me… I felt the chip on my shoulder… I turned and looked back at the drawer that I kept Jen’s letter in.

                I told myself to leave it be. Over and over again.  Leave it… I told myself that I did not need it… she left my I need to know that it does not matter… I just kept on telling myself that it did not  really matter I looked out the window… And I told myself that I had to move forwards… need to get back to school… needed to get back to Niki. I rushed… saw the street lights start to turn on… I had my phone in my hand as I ran. Every few seconds I would look back down to my phone I would just stare at the time… As I ran I saw the gates of the school close… As I stood near the fount of gate I looked around… the guard closing the gate looked at me. he walked over to me and looked down at his radio… a soft chatter emanated from his radio… then he spoke