My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 14] More Than One Mistake

“Ya… she made mistakes and I… can of just left her”
“What did she do?  I mean she must have done something right?”
“She… She killed someone I love…” That… was when the night took another turn.

                Char’s face said it all… she was so caught off guard. Her hand shook as she reached for mine…

I did not want to cause more problems. I did not want things to go down this way,

“she… she she killed someone?”
“In away…”
“Wait sander…  are you kidding?! Because this is not something you should be joking around with.”
“It’s just hard to explain right now…”
“So when will you explain IT?! BACUSE I’M GETTING TRIED OF ALL OF YOUR SHIT SANDER!” that caught me of guard “YOU KEEP RUNNING AWAY FROM THESE PROBLEMS OF YOURS ” With this I could see the rage in her eyes slowly building. Within a second I felt her hand across my face.

                Those few seconds felt like years. I saw her looking away from me. Yes there was this feeling of hell. Char was someone that actually cared for me, to see her like that was hard. She was breaking down. The feeling of my own disappointment was overriding my common sense It was such a struggle trying to keep everything in check. With Jen looking back at me I found it so difficult, Jen 

looked at me for a few seconds then sat down at one of the empty tables

“It’s… It’s personal”
“Personal… Fine… I understand… all up to you.”
“I’ll tell you one day I promise”
“No more promises Sander. I’m…. I’m getting tired of getting them broken.”
“no really I promise”
“Don’t… Sander. It’s too much already I’m to tried.”

                As she walks away one of her patrons calls her over, Just Gave her more of a reason no walk out on me, I looked over to Jen. She was just standing there at the door.  I Started to make my way to the door. As I got there I pulled my jacket off the rack, As I put it on. I felt Jen’s hand Run down my arm to my hand, she make me look at her.

“You okay?”
“lets… lets just go home.”

                Jen Held my hand. As we walked thought the Thick snow, I felt her arm sling around me. The warmth was comforting, Made me Feel something at least, She was just holding me… As I unlocked the door I invited her in. We both walked over to the bed. As I Sat down on the bed side, I saw Jen taking off her jacket, she just left it on the table. Walking over to me she sat down next to me. as I was taking off my shoes,

“Want to talk about it? Or are we going to skip the lovey dovey stuff and do what we usually do?”
“Let’s skip it for today” She suddenly sat on my lap and kissed me. we both slowly laid down,