My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 6] Off the bus.

After a few hours of talking to her, the bus pulled in to its stop… even if the bus officially took  seven-ish hours it felt like only minutes, the moment that she got up was the end of what felt like everything.  I felt like I was about to lose a friend… I felt like I was about to be alone again. Truth be told I was starting to panic.  As she got out of her chair and started to walk down the path way I reached out and grabbed her hand.

“Ally I love you!... I can’t live without you… I want you to be in my life forever … Love me forever… you’re the only one that understands me I don’t want you to leave me!  you’re the only reason why I am still a live” why my mind even started to think of something like that in the first place, I could not even tell you why… but my mind was stuck on her…  honestly I wish that I did say that. But I did not say anything. I asked something simpler than that.

“Will…” she looked at me. sitting back down.
“sander you okay?”
“I… I want to ask you something.”
“what would that be?” she said pulling off her leather jacket.  it reviled her more spaghetti straps.  The jacket used to be covering up the intricate cuts of her dress… her whole back was exposed…  I could see the sweat glistening on the noticeable skin. 

“Will… will I ever see you again?”
“Will… honestly… I don’t-“

                My mind was rushing with anything I could come up with. I was just so worried… I don’t think so.  I don’t think I want to talk to you again. I don’t want to see someone like you. She hates me…

“I don’t think I can imagine a world without you..”
“re…really?”
“Sander. “ she looked towards me holding both of my hands. “I can’t promise tomorrow… but I can promise you today.”
“Ally…” I had no words to what she said.
“Sander… seven hours of being with you made me realize how this world really is. And to be honest… I can’t think of a world without you.”
“can… I get your number?”
“Number? Oh… I don’t have a phone… but I do live in Guio” Guio being our home town “ so maybe I will see you around ya?”
“Ally…” I saw her starting to tear up.
“don’t …” she stopped and looked away from me “no good bye… never good byes… just see you next time…”
“Se…see you next time then.”

                She started to walk away from me… I never realize how much it would actually hurt. But I was just hoping that this pain would turn in to something better.

                As she stepped off the bus… that was the last thing I remembered of her…  did I see her… after that… I could barely remember… but my mind snapped back in to reality and I was standing with Char in found of the emergency room door… this… was… it…