My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 4] It's not More than just an emergency

Then I remembered everything... I remembered that day. it was a day in January, i was on a bus to the capital. it was for an educational outing, as i was sitting on the bus  I was sitting at the right side next to the window... i was heading there alone. my family was not with me at that time...

     

          I found myself looking out the window next to me, I was thinking about how much the world had problems... even if I was supposed to be happy, As i sat there in a pool of self-loathing... my attentions was focused on the passing farm fields. I was honestly thank full that I was not all alone...

There was a girl sitting next to me, she was on her laptop for a few minutes before she suddenly closed it... as she put on her headset... I could not do anything else but stop and look at her; I could not look away, her features drew me in.

          Her dark golden hair, cut to her shoulders, the hair was also tied up in to a pony tail. I found her blue eyes interesting… especially because our eyes are usually brown, but I saw something else, I saw that fake smile, I knew that smile because I used that kind of smile… her eyes met mine… we locked eyes for more than a minute until She spoke.

“School or family?” she said leaning closer to me.
“Both…” I said resting my head on the headrest of the chair “you?”
“Same… so why you here? Escaping?”
“school… how about you?”
“Escaping… I don’t want to deal with them…”
“all of them?”
“ya… it’s been hell liv-“ I cut her off before she could finish her sentence
“living in this stupid world?” she simply nodded.

          We talked for hours… we connected. We loved the world but we also hated everyone in it, It was a moment of clarity… I felt like… I felt like I could relate to someone. But I needed to know her name… before anything else…

“Um hay…”
“yes?”
“can I ask you something?”
“sure thing~ what’s up?”
“What’s your name?”
“my name?”
“ya why not?”
“My name is Ally~”