My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 3] From the Dark to the Void.

And that was when my emotions boiled all together, a sudden feeling of happiness and pain, the joy with sudden suffering… so I remained silent. I did not know how to feel… so I would just have to leave her… I did not acknowledge anything that she said. I simply walked away, to I tried my best to get to my class room. But in the end… I felt far too lazy. And I had way too much self-loathing, I wanted to talk to that girl, but the truth be told is I felt over whelmed, I felt too panicked. And honestly I wanted to lessen my time here. I did not want to stay in school. It felt like a living hell. Even before I walked in to the class room, one of my teachers spoke to me, her long hair and stupid outfit is extremely off setting, and the fact that her eyeglasses reflecting the light in to my eyes.

“I’m honestly surprised that you came to school…”
“why would you say that ma’am”
“Well you’re so stupid and all,” ma’am Flora was always like this… even from the first day I got here she was so harassing, well mostly because I was different.

“Yes ma’am I know… there is no reason to remind me.”  She scoffed and started to walk towards the class room, I saw the our “honor student” Walking in to the class room. just straight up bumps me, nearly knocking me to the ground, so she just kept on walking. It was nothing… I knew it was nothing… but I still felt bad about it. Well because I failed a lot of my classes she thinks she is better than me… some one that she just pushes around… the worst is when I am on her group for stupid god darn group works, she does not help us, she leaves us to suffer, the only time she would help is when she knows her grades are at risk.

                As I got my bearings I quickly made my way in to the class, as I entered it Ma’am Flora said I was late… I was only a few seconds between out honor student and I was the one that was late? This brought me down. It made me sad. It made me realize that this world I am in dose not care for me. I sat down my place.  Was I supposed to listen to the lecture? Even if I wanted to I could not… my mind was focused on her.  A cold wind swept in to the class room and it started to remind me of everything. Then I saw her, before my memories got set off a knock on our classroom door. Ma’am flora walked over and opened the door, Char was standing there…

“Ma’am may I excuse Sander for a few hours?”
“as long as he is out of the class room I don’t really care.”

                I got up and went with Char. She was silent as we went down the stairs. I found it odd. This was far too real… something happened… I did not know where we were going and that put me on edge. The lights in this building were off only a light at the end of the hall way… Char started to walk faster… To me this was getting far too sketchy, but I could not trust that she was not going to hurt me… after last night and all…  but then I saw it… that one word, This word did not just put me on edge… it sent me over it… my mind started to think of the worse… every possibility ran around my head hundreds of time… it was panicking me. my heart started to race as I took a few steps forward… as I held the door to open it. I was sent back… I remembered this room… I remembered everything about. This room… the placard on the room said

“Emergency room”