My Battle With Mental Health (Chapter 1)[page 2] Out of the Cold And in to the Dark.

All I could hear was the soft snow crunching under my feet, the sounds was not too calming, truth be told... it put me on edge... made me feel like I was being watched. one in the morning I knew for a fact that people would not be out... but that way of thinking put me more on edge. my heart was racing.

I have been walking for an hour... nothing but the snow around me... made everything feel like it was empty... like... it was nothing. The fact that the moon was out did not help the fact that I was on edge... my eyes where darting from tree to tree... side ally to anything I could look at... only a few more feet and I was going to be home... the door was in my line of sight...

          I rushed towards the door. It was my only chance to rest and relax… something… but as the door unlocked and I stepped in to my house… that was the time, I realized I was alone again. I knew that I had school tomorrow, to others it would be a day of school. It was supposed to be simple, you go there learn stuff then leave, but for me. it would be not sleeping, not eating, walking to school, getting harassed by the teacher and my classmates, walk to the bar, drink for a few hours then walk home. As I was pondering this I sat down at my computer, and started to work on whatever projects I had to do.

          I worked, for hours and hours… until the sun came slowly radiating through my window. my mind focused on a warm bath to start my day off, I felt as if my hands where frozen… the code on my screen was breathing some form of life, I got tired of this code so long ago but I knew that it was something I had to do…

          After a quick bath dried myself and rushed to dress up, then packed my bag with my laptop and whatever else I would need, and with that I set off for school. The sun was slightly blocked out by the clouds, and honestly… the way to school was boring.

          But when I got to school that is where the everything started. Because the first person I saw was her…Char… sure she was talking with others but the way she was standing just the way she looked in general, her hair was in a ponytail and a rather thin jacket but three layered cloths, I knew for a fact that she was fine and warm. But I knew something was up, so I tried my best to walk past her but she quickly noticed me.

“sander!” she said quickly grabbing me.
“Hi… Char” I said scratching my head.
“Sander… I’ve been talking around to some of my friends… and I think I want you to get comfortable with one of my friends”

          She stepped aside revealing her… her short hair… the way her eyes had perfect passion, there was something, something that reminded me of her…